love love love

i wish people would realize this.

for example ( and i'm going to get a little personal here for a sec), i fell in love with my best friend not too long ago. or at least it doesn't seem that long ago. in actuality it's been many many months. anyway, i fell pretty hard and couldn't understand what i was doing wrong. then i made this realization and as soon as i did, it became easier to get over him. i used to wish that he loved me back the way i thought i loved him, but then when i thought about it, just because he didn't care about me the way i wished he would, that didn't mean he didn't care at all. it just meant he loved me differently.

we now have the friendship i had wanted for us long before i started to think of him romantically. we love each other like best friends, siblings even. i tell him things i don't tell anyone else and vice versa.

and now he's in the same place i was. i wish he could figure this out.